Hey, waddayaknow? It’s September 1st already – a date that signals a new beginning for a lot of people. The first day of a new month that alludes to the “-ber” months usually gets people excited for the holidays this early on – geez! But why am I talking about this particular day of the year as if it’s worth a 500-word blog entry? It’s to have a misleading intro to an otherwise nonsensical blog post.
Really. This blog entry, aptly titled “Back to Blah,” is my re-emergence to the blogosphere. The last time I blogged was eons ago. And, as I have done so in the past, I deleted my previous posts because of how terrible the writing was. Color me overcritical but I cringe every time I reread my posts. It’s a tough habit to break, and believe me, I’m working on it.
So, if you happen to come across this blog randomly, I am a wannabe
struggling writer as you might have guessed. When I was first asked the perennial childhood question, “What do you want to be when you grow up?” I knew immediately how to answer. I’ve always wanted to become a writer, and I aspired to be one of those writers whose works will leave you mind-fucked in a good way.
It’s a work in progress. Right now, I’m working as a part-time editor/writer for a small, local newspaper in the San Francisco Bay Area. Upon reassessing myself, I’ve come to realize that in the past year and three months, I have gone through different phases of being a writer:
- The testing-the-waters writer
When I first started writing for the above mentioned newspaper, I wrote my assigned mini-articles the way I was used to – firm, factual, monotonous. This particular newspaper is different in a sense that the writing is more creative than “news-y.” So I had to deviate from my usual writing style and adapt to the tone of our newspaper. It was a struggle at first, but I soon realized that I am simply learning a different way of doing things – and that writers don’t have to be inclined to just one style.
- The eager-to-prove-myself writer
Months later, I figured I should try easing my way in and start incorporating my writing style into my articles. By this time, my writing has evolved from my boring, ol’ style to a more personal, heartfelt tone. But that doesn’t mean I know any better; I still have a lot to learn, y’all! The key is to ASK for feedback, consider your editor’s sage advice, and take whatever pointers make sense so you can establish a style that works for you. Remember though that you’re not just writing for yourself; you also have to consider your readers. (#notetoself).
- The lazy-dazy editor
I must say that I have improved my craft since I started. I’m still not the writer that I want to be (more on that later), but as Hemingway (name drop much?) allegedly said, “We are all apprentices in a craft where no one ever becomes a master.” Now THAT’S what I wanna tell my 11-year-old self. Anyhoo, as months flew by, I became too complacent. I noticed I became self-assured with my editing that I failed to recognize the mistakes I was making. What once was an eager writer became a stagnant editor who stopped trying and learning and improving because she got lazy. Nothing challenged me anymore because I stopped (or maybe avoided) looking for tasks that would shake me to the core. So now I am getting back on track!
But fear not, aspiring writers. It’s not all that bad. If you’re not too sure as to what you want to pursue, just keep trying different things until you find your niche. I wish there was a Tinder app for choosing a career! I kid, I kid! Seriously, though, somebody should get started on that.
I’m hoping to put this writing thing to good use someday so that my future sagging self will have my 26-year-old self to thank.